010. The Dance of Life: Finding Expansion Through Unexpected Events

# 010. The Dance of Life: Finding Expansion Through Unexpected Events

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Welcome to Return to Rhythm, A sacred space for the woman who's been holding it all, but somewhere along the way stopped hearing herself. This is your invitation back into the quiet, back into your breath, back into the parts of you that never needed to prove, perform, or hold it all together. I'm Farrah Channel Inner Voice facilitator and emotional liberation guide.

I hold space for high functioning heart led women who've lost themselves in the giving to soften, to unravel, and to remember the truth buried beneath the busyness. Here we slow down, we ask better questions, we listen inward, and we begin again, not from pressure, but from presence. Each week you'll receive channeled meditations, truth transmissions, or sacred reflections designed to help you return [00:01:00] to your rhythm and rise in your own divine timing.

There's no rush here. There's just your truth waiting to be heard. Let's begin.

Hello and welcome back to Return to Rhythm. I know it's been a few weeks and we ended up taking a little bit of a hiatus, a bit longer than anticipated, but life was just ing and I think sometimes we just have to allow it. I am a six two in human design, and if you know anything about it, the two line is the hermit and.

There are definitely waves where I feel like [00:02:00] I need to hermit, where I need to pull back, where I need to go within, and what I move through in those seasons is really what I can come forward with in the role model. The sixth line, and share from that place, from the things that I've integrated while I was in that hermit stage.

And. I have moved through, I feel like lifetime's worth of things in the last few weeks. Really. I just did not see a lot of these things coming and it's okay. I had a family member get into an accident in my vehicle a few days before Christmas. And they were okay. Everybody was fine luckily, but there was this long limbo time space because this happening a couple of [00:03:00] days before Christmas, really through things for a loop.

It really changed the timeline of everything and forced things to stretch out, and I think it was so on purpose. In this situation, I could have played the victim. I could have really just focused on the worst case scenario. I could have gone down this rabbit hole of like, oh my God, how am I gonna pay for this?

How are we gonna get through this? So many places for our minds to go when these difficult and hard things come up in our life. And in this season, I have really been trying to focus on being my most wealthiest self. And how funny is it for this type of thing to come up during this season? I am trying to embody wealth and make [00:04:00] this next year my wealthiest.

Yet, what does that look like? What does wealth mean to me? And. If I reflect back on a lot of my life, I will say I really like nice things and there's nothing wrong with that. It's like liking nice things there. There's nothing wrong with it. Being a designer, I gravitate towards beautiful things.

And I desire to have more beautiful things. It doesn't necessarily mean that I want a more, a volume of a lot of nice things, but in this current reality, in this 3D physical reality, I just would like to have quality clothes that last, that feel good. And when it came down to [00:05:00] choosing a new vehicle. I really wanted to have something nice, something that felt like luxury because we all deserve to have nice things.

It's just this belief that we don't deserve it. That keeps us from obtaining it.

But I was in this season of not knowing what the outcome would be with my car. So I was really in a place where I was asking myself, what do I actually desire? What do I actually want? This is not something I was actively out looking for for myself. I had a car that was 2010 Lexus. It was a nice car. I love this car.

I had no idea how attached to this vehicle I was, and that was not something I was actively looking to. Up [00:06:00] level to improve. It brought up so much emotion too. We had to go look at the car and get everything out of it at one point a couple of days after the accident. And I was just overcome with so much grief.

So much life was lived in this car. This is the car that we moved from Florida to Virginia in, and my dog rode in the back of it a lot and he's no longer with us. And I got this car when my kids were still in elementary school and just so much life was lived in this vehicle and it was just taken away.

Not by my choice, just by life happening, and I had to decide how I was going to view this [00:07:00] whole situation, how I was going to move through it. I had to feel all of the feelings that it brought up and. When we go through these hard things in life, we have to decide are we gonna use it as a point of expansion or are we going to let it consume us?

Are we gonna play the victim? Are we going to go down the rabbit hole of all of the terrible things that it's bringing up the worst case scenario.

But I chose to look at it as the universe upleveling me. I chose to look at it as you said, you want to be your most wealthy self. Well, your car does not embody this wealthy vision of who you are as your wealthiest self.[00:08:00]

And it kept going week after week of not knowing. If they were gonna total my car, if they were going to fix my car. And I used this season to really just learn new things. Like I started knitting and doing things that, made me feel good. And at one point I chose to picture the outcome like it had already happened.

And that's when everything shifted.

I decided that I was gonna say, remember when they totaled my car? But they gave me way more money than I thought I was going to get. Remember? Do you remember when that happened? And when I tell you the day, I thought that the very next day they assessed my vehicle and I knew within an [00:09:00] hour. That they had given me over $10,000 for my car.

And mind you, my car was 15 years old and they gave me $10,000 for that car,

and had, I allowed my mind to stay on the track of like, oh, I'll be lucky if they give me $5,000 for it. They're definitely gonna total it, or they're gonna fix it and it's gonna take months and I'm still not gonna have a vehicle. There's all these scenarios where I could have chosen a different route, but I decided to say, remember when the best and highest outcome possible happened,

and I think this whole event happened to remind me that I can be really excited and ecstatic about every little thing in my life. In this season where we were just kind of in limbo and not really knowing what was gonna happen, [00:10:00] I looked at a couple of cars. I had this inkling to look at A-B-M-W-X three.

My inner voice was like, oh, this is, this is the car, you know, this is the car. And I went and drove one and I really liked it. But as we get into the point where the, they're like, do you wanna apply for the loan? My inner voice is like, not yet. So I continued to wait. And a couple weeks were going by and I found a really good deal on another X three at the local BMW place.

That other place was really far away. We had driven really far to go look at it, but of course, while I'm on this website looking at this car, I was like, let me just see what else they have for under $20,000.

Spending more than $20,000 on a vehicle does not make sense for me when I don't drive that much. Now that my son drives, it just doesn't make sense for me to spend a lot of money and I don't exactly want my car payment to be as much as I pay for my house. Like that [00:11:00] just does not feel good to me and my body.

And as I'm looking, I'm looking. I come across this Lexus SUV that is a little bit bigger than the one I had, and something about it. I just kept going back to it and going back to it and going back to it, and I was like, maybe I need to go look at this. Because this kind of car was not even on my radar.

It was not even like on my radar of like, this is what I really wanted to drive. I have been wanting one of the new Broncos for years. I'm like, well, maybe I can just go get one of those to lease. You know? Like I maybe, maybe I could swing something like that. I'll just lease one of those. And funny enough, the rental car that we got through my insurance company was a Bronco Sport, which was the smaller one.

And when I tell you I hated that thing. I hated it and I'm like, oh my God. I bet I wouldn't even actually like the bigger Bronco. I was like, it's just so funny. [00:12:00] There's some things that we believe are our dream car or this thing that we envision as like being the be all, end all thing that we desire and we actually go drive it or experience it and it's not actually what we want, but anyhow.

At one point after we had gotten this check, the next day my husband's like, do you wanna go look at that car? I know you've been thinking about it. Do you wanna go look at it? And I was like, yeah, I do. And when I tell you my body was running the show that Sunday, I got up, got ready and went downstairs.

And he looked at me, he's like, oh, you're ready to go now. Yeah, my body was driving that day. It decided we're going to get this car today, and we show up to the dealership. They didn't have it right away. The guy had to go across the street to get the vehicle, but there was an employee there that wanted to buy this specific car for their son, and [00:13:00] there were three other people that wanted this vehicle.

But when I got behind the wheel and test drove it, my inner voice immediately said, this is my car. There was a reason it told me to look at the X three. The X three was the route to get to this vehicle. When I drive this car, I am ecstatic about it. I am so lit up about driving this car and that is the whole fucking point.

That is the whole point. We are supposed to be excited and lit up about life. It doesn't matter what the thing is, but what lights you up. And I use this experience that some people would consider hard and difficult and icky and sticky and yucky to move through. I will tell you right now, every ounce of the way this turned out was so aligned.

The [00:14:00] person that we worked with in the insurance company was lovely. The person that gave us the check was wonderful. The person that sold me the car was the nicest person. It was the most seamless car buying experience I have ever had because I allowed the universe to run the show. I allowed the universe to show me what it wanted me to experience through this event.

And it was almost like it had to abruptly throw me into this new reality in a way I was not expecting, literally like my worst nightmare of a family member being in, in an accident. I've already experienced that multiple times with my husband being in motorcycle accidents. And let me just tell you. It is traumatic.

It is traumatic to have a family member be in a car accident of any kind, [00:15:00] and it was really a moment for me to see how far I've come to not allow anxiety to take over to know that if something is coming up, it's coming up for me to feel it. It's coming up because it's going to expand me in some way, shape or form, and not in any way.

My mind can determine that it's going to go. It's really about taking your hands off the wheel and just holding the frequency of the highest possible outcome so that the universe can deliver it to you.

You can shed so much and you become this new version of yourself, but can you hold it?

Can you hold that frequency? When hard things come up, the more you [00:16:00] elevate, the more you expand, there's going to be fear that arises. There's going to be things that we have to shed so we can embody this higher version of ourselves at each level. If you think of it like a spiral. As we're moving up, we're going to face things that are either gonna keep us on the same loop over and over and over again, or we're going to use it to expand us to the next level of the spiral.

And in some ways, I'm sure a lot of people are gonna perceive this whole subject matter as superficial, but it's life. Right, it's life happening, moving in this 3D reality, and we get to choose how we want to experience it, how we want our story to be written, how we want to create this movie of this life that we are [00:17:00] making.

The perception that maybe I didn't care about the person in the accident because the car mattered. No, the life mattered. The life lived in, the vehicle mattered.

The person behind the wheel matters deeply to me, and that was first and foremost.

But it was also an opportunity, an opportunity that I could literally say thank you to this person for wrecking the car so that I can enrich my life in this way that I was not expecting to, to bring more joy and excitement into my life that I was not expecting to come through something so silly as a vehicle.

Because I've always used viewed those things as such a practical thing, like, ugh, why would, why does it matter if you have the nicest car? It just gets you from point A to point B, [00:18:00] and why does it matter? But it brings me joy now, like I'm excited to drive to the store. And before that just was not even a thing.

It was not a place where I was excited to get behind the wheel. And now I am. And now I am.

We can go through these really hard and difficult things and use them as points of expansion and we just have to allow ourselves to feel the emotions that come up with these situations.

These events, sometimes source brings them up in our lives and ask us which direction are we gonna choose? Are we gonna choose trusting what is unfolding through this difficult thing? Or are we going to let our mind freak out [00:19:00] and run the show?

It is always a choice that we have in each moment of how we're going to move through it, and I will say it's not been easy.

One thing that did make it easier for me was the fact that I have some soul friends in my life now, and they helped me to hold the frequency, to hold the vibration of, it's not working out yet, because something even better is coming. And I think it's such a perfect opportunity to tell you how.

Things unfolded with this past year of, oh my gosh, like the most soul aligned friendships came into my reality this year that I am just so grateful for, and they have enriched my life so [00:20:00] deeply. The coolest example that I have is my new friend Kristen, if you don't know her, she has a business called Simply Aligned Living.

She is lovely. And at one point my inner voice guided me on a walk to ask her to be on the podcast. And we haven't recorded that yet. We haven't done it yet. But at one point I reached out to her, I'm like, would you ever want to be on the podcast? I wanna talk about how. People pleasing and overgiving.

How does that show up in the physical body? Because she does bioenergetic, body scans, which are really cool. It's like, helps to heal you on the quantum level. She's done that for my son before. It is the most amazing thing. I have never experienced anything like it, how much depth she can get from these scans.

It's fantastic. I truly think it's the future of health. But anyways, my inner voice is like you should ask her to be on the podcast. And I was like, okay, well sure I'll do that. And I reached out to her and we booked a Zoom [00:21:00] session and we got on that call and talked for like two hours. And we have pretty much talked every day since.

And when I tell you that my inner voice said, she's going to be your new best friend, and I was like, okay. inner voice, like, how old are we? Five. But honestly, this friendship has felt like. Like the middle school part of me has been revived. That part of you that gets so excited to hang out with your friends and you can't wait to tell them everything.

It's been like that with my three new friends this year, and the way that it unfolded was a way that wouldn't normally bring about a friendship. It was like inner. Our voice knew that I was gonna go down this path because the podcast means so much to me. And that I wanted to bring people on at some points to talk about their work too.

And my whole goal is to lift everybody up around me with this podcast, people that matter to me. [00:22:00] And so it knew that if I go down this route, that it would bring this friendship into my life that this was the path that it would unfold for me.

It's not a typical way you would go about seeking a friendship, right? But that's the way the inner voice works. If you allow it to lead your life, it's going to bring all of these beautiful experiences in because you're leaning in and trusting it, and trusting that you're soul already determined all of these things before you got here.

So if you follow that inner guidance. It already knows. It knows exactly what you need, when you need it. And all of this unfolded before this event happened, and it would've been so much more difficult for me to move through this experience without my friends this year. Had I been trying to move through it alone, to maintain that frequency, to keep that view of it, that it's going to be even better than you can imagine.

It's gonna turn out even better than you can imagine. [00:23:00] And holding that vision versus. The way our minds typically want to go, which is the anxious, nervous, fearful of the unknown route that it's used to going down. And I think that's one of the most beautiful things about following the inner voice is the surprise and delight that you get from it.

And we have so much opportunity to. Let life unfold for us rather than trying to control and force the outcome. And if we can look at hard things in our life and not perceive them as quote unquote hard, and we can look at them as opportunities of expansion, then it makes them so much easier to move through and it gives us a chance to imagine better.

To perceive that maybe this is happening because there's more that is meant for me. On the other side of it, I don't think all of these things happen because [00:24:00] it's trying to punish us. My inner voice tells me that I came here to play, I came here to play, to have fun and. If that's what it wants, then why would it bring these difficult situations to punish me if it's here to have fun and now I have a car that I get to have fun in?

So it's just really interesting to see how these things happen. Like we don't have any actual control, and the more we let go of that, the more life can surprise and delight us.

So many other things happened in this season, but I feel like this specific thing was really such a pivotal, lesson on how to move through something difficult. I know there's far greater difficult things out [00:25:00] there, like losing your loved ones and losing your pets and, people getting sick or, yes, life has hard things that we're moving through, but we have to learn how to release the attachment to the outcome.

And allow the feelings that come up through the experience to come up to be released so that the highest outcome can come through.

That's all I have to share with you today. Thank you for being here with me. I know it's been a while and I am not sure what took me so long, but sometimes we just need space to really be in a place where we can share what we're moving through. Rest is really imperative and space is really imperative for my wisdom to come through.

And so I am just trying to follow my most natural rhythm for my design, [00:26:00] for everything. Just trusting and allowing is the key to living the most authentic life that we can live. And with that, I'll see you in the next one.